I don’t feel happy today, i don’t know whats wrong with me. I hate feeling sorry for myself. Maybe i’m depressed my work schedule is changing? i don’t like working nights. i feel like i’m going to miss out on family stuff and i won’t be able to see my boyfriend as much. just because i don’t have kids or married doesn’t mean i don’t have a life. everyone’s like you don’t have kids so its okay working nights. its so annoying. even though i got a decent amount of tax money i feel like its not enough. i really wanted to spoil myself but so far all i’ve bough is $50 dollars worth of clothes. it really sucks being responsible and paying your shit than going out and buying everything you want. i do feel stressed out. like i’ve said a million times i need a vacation from this city. hopefully with this new job my vacation time will come soon and then i’m definitely going to california to the beach. What i have in the back of my mind is hoping me and my boyfriend can make time for each other when he starts working. hes most likely will work days and i’m going to start working nights. i just have to be positive. its so random when depressing thought come rolling into your head. I have no idea why i feel sad,depressed, anxious, worried today. someone just give me a happy pill.!